Sentimiento muy perdido

Feeling very lost today, don't know why.

you know when you get that feeling of complete clarity, but you turn round, blink and its gone and all your left with is the feeling of being lost and not knowing where to go from here, well that's where I'm at. i have a plan, i know where i wanna go from here, how i want things to change, how i want me to change, and it seems so wonderful, but only ever briefly does it seem wonderful, and then the doubt just creeps back in and consumes the clarity. then it just becomes all blurry again, i get confused.

i don't think my poor brain knows whether its coming or going.

i just have to keep my eye on the end result and know that what i want to change has to be, needs to be changed for the sake of my sanity. even if i fail at least i know i will have tried and at this moment in my life i have never tried, i regret that. people have always been surrounding me that have stopped me, have pulled me under and make me believe that i am not worth it, that i cant do it. they have enticed me away from my dreams, from what i want for me. they have always succeeded, but NO more. i do feel i have turned a corner, it may of taken me a long old time getting here and yes like most people I'm sure, i have regrets and wish i could go back and change just one event that had a snowball effect on my life but i cant change it. what i have right now is all i have to work with, and while it might not be much i think i can get there with it. Here's to hoping right, to wishing, to wanting, to keeping the dream alive no matter how big or small everyone has the right, the privilege to dream, to want to be something more than they are if they are unhappy with what they see in the mirror or what they experience each and everyday day. to everyone out there who feels deep in their souls that they are meant for something more, that they have that burning passion inside that tells them this, what they have isn't for you, and that you need to reach higher.

i have also been the one that has held myself back for so long. there has always been that voice in my head that says to me, 'your no good, you have no talent you will never make it, people will hate what you write, your ideas and who you are' but if i don't try i will never find out will i. if i don't have a talent for writing then someone will I'm very sure let me know that i suck, that's just the wonderful world we live in today.

until there are people who say to me that i am nothing and have no hope i will keep trying. i will keep the that hope alive. but i fear i am but one voice lost within the masses and there are far better people than me out there.

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